Sunday, June 21, 2009


How often do you feel out of place? Lately, I have felt almost a struggle to be in the church. It isn't that I have anything against the church for it is treasureable as well as honorable. It is precisely that sentiment which causes me to feel somewhat disconnected.

The church keeps getting more amazing. I continue to decrease. My energy isn't subsiding. My awareness of how far off-base I am increases. None of this is a bad thing for God is at work and I belong. But I write it should some of you believe I never feel "off". I'm off.

In the meantime, I must trust Him. He knows how to work with me or go around me. I'm not the key. Jesus' Spirit is. Be encouraged, therefore, if you feel slightly bummed without a very good reason; your heart just seems to sag. God is at work and will be working with you even while you think He is not.

We must realize the church is bigger than the local attendance in a specific building. It is in every nation (sometimes underground and other times under bridges). The church is poised in glorious cathedrals and vicious concentration camps. His body is global. We are a part of it...even when we don't feel so "participatory".

Out of place lately? I know what you mean. Let not your heart be troubled. He is strong.


John McCoy said...

I needed to hear that. You have a way about you, Terry. Thanks for letting Jesus live in you and letting other people see it.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing so openingly and honestly. It's good to know that I am not alone.

Anonymous said...

Bless you. You've expressed my feelings today. It's as if I have a tear in my heart and I can't find the source of bleeding.
I turn to God to help me understand why I feel this way and how to respond in faith.